One of a kind
by Acumen
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"Snowflake"
Like snowflake on the sky,
I came into your mind,
I looked towards your eyes
and said your heart is mine,
you took a step behind
and told me I`m your kind,
right then I started smiling
and looked upon my darling.
- Milan
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Emotions,
these earthly seeds of heavenly
paradise that you`re spelled upon
every once and a while ..
Devotions,
like an ocean full of whales swimming
among those drops of Eden, humming to one
another with the justified knowing of
belonging on the face of the earth that
mankind no longer deserves to have ..
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The story?
Where did this song really got it`s inspiration
and the melancholy, it`s carrying force? ..
It`s a story of a boy and a girl,
the rest you might already know..
I am sure we`d all like to cherish our loved ones and to
think they`re something special between heaven and earth,
something precious, and actually that`s quite true since
we`re all different, yet at the same time all related.
Every single person whom you get acquinted with during
you`re life, you develope feelings, certain thoughts about
this person. There was one feeling that held a thought
with`in which I hadn`t had for a long time. I almost had
closed my eyes for seeking it`s existance, and nearly
completely had forgotten how it felt like ..
She basicly turned me upside down, and reminded
me that not all live is cold, unharsh, and full
of hatred, dishonesty and repulsive acts of human.
She reminded me how wonderful and precious life
actually is, and how we all take it for granted,
when infact no one owes us that blessing.
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.v.i.s.i.o.n.s.
Why is it that we have the urge to create destruction,
deceives and lies with`in this garden of Eden which some
of refer as planet earth? .. Do we REALLY need guns, wars,
victims, casualties and misery to understand how vulnerable
mother nature is, and how significant we actually are.
My answer at the time would be "yes". We`re spending more
money in finding out more efficient ways to kill entire
nations than in solving the problems that are slowly, but
surely getting out of hands. In other words, we`re all in
this together, shame on all of us! There`s one thing I`m
glad about, and that is that we won`t be vanishing without
paying the price to all of this. The end is near, and it
won`t be pretty. We`re all part of this chain which in
the end leads to slow, but sure suicide of mankind,
suicide none of us really wanted.
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.i.n.f.l.u.e.n.c.e.s.
Here`s some music that I feel obligated to mention as
like others, I also "drain" influences from the world
surrounding me, and from the music I love listening to.
First of all, Warder`s "Thanatos Minor" is something
I didn`t instantly fall in love with, but after some
period of time I got the hang of it, and experienced
the airy, yet still "pressurized" enviroment.
Once again I must thank Warder (the reincarnation
of Mozart?) for these terrific samples he had done.
Who knows if I`d have ever composed this song
without his inspiring pro-samples.
Awesome`s "For a New World" is truly beautiful too,
much more like my song than Warder`s, and maybe this
silently taught me to control the flow of emotions,
and to express them. A wonderful pop ballad!
Nitzer`s "The Adventure" is quite similar to the
mood and style Awesome`s song has, but this has more
of the same elements as mine does. Like in mine, the
piano plays an important role, and I could also almost
swear I can hear a story been told with every note
being played like it would be a word whispered
in the air. Again, one song you must hear!
Nightwish`s "Sleeping Sun". This is a commercial
finnish band, so you won`t find this at any scene
related site. Actually I have never liked heavy
music, but this wonderful (not-se-heavy) ballad
made an instant affection on me, exspecially the
female singer`s beautiful "opera" type of singing).
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.closing words & thoughts.
It felt damn good to compose again to tell you the truth.
I`d compare this experience to holding your breath for
a minute and then slowly inhaling again. It sure does feel
good, doesn`t it? .. This was like a new discovery for
me with an old subject of interest. I think I`ve simply
come to realize that the key factor in making music is
that there`s no time, only space ..
Funny thing, I kept whistling my own song for the
first time in my life, and infact, I actually didn`t
remember nor realize that it was my own song
I kept on repeating ..
Another funny thing is how many of you have asked me
about my knowledge of music theory, and the simple
fact that I don`t have much knowledge of theory at all.
I know I`m not alone with this matter, since there are
many people just like me, composing music and that are
confronted with the same type of questions and amazements.
I`d like to learn more about theory, but at the same time
I can`t help to think that it might take away something
"untained" and "pure" with my work among music, in it`s
style and unique way of presenting it. Well, in any
case, music theory is an interesting field which
I am coming more aware of day by day ..
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.t.h.e. .e.n.d.
This is all for now, but before I finish,
let me light a candle of hope to enlighten
your day. As you`re listening to the end of
my song, you can hear that it`s reaching out
for a better tomorrow as the melody changes
from melancholic to one that carries more
hope and belief inside ..
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Email>> acumen@kolubmus.fi
Homepage>> www.kolumbus.fi/acumen
Snailmail>> Milan Kolarovic
Hollontie 59
35320 Hirsila
Finland
(c) Milan Kolarovic (aka Acumen)
2nd of October 1999
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